ひさしぶり！Long time! I know I haven't updated "The Nomad's Journal" for some months now, but I've already written the drafts for the remaining chapters. However, I'm still contemplating on whether to publish them already or not. I don't think I'm strong enough to expose some of the "characters" and events in my life that have changed my life in more ways than one. Postponing the posting of the next chapters is actually more for these people's benefit than mine. Anyway, let me update you with my current situation...only if you care enough to know.
Looking back 2 years ago, after rejecting the call center job opportunity, I made a promise to myself not to apply in any call center ever again. All I really ever wanted after that day 2 years ago was to be a nurse, and after a year of working for the Department of Health, I felt that my calling was really to be a nurse---that it's the only profession that can give me fulfillment. I never thought I would be forced to swallow my own words two years after. That's right. By some twist of fate, I am now a call center agent at, you guessed it right, Convergys. Life really surprises us!
What made me decide to put my Nursing career on hold? For almost seven months, I've been trying to put myself where I really want to be, but it seemed like no matter how much I try, I just couldn't. For two months I stayed in Manila, getting lost and trying my luck in applying to several hospitals and polyclinics abroad, but none of it materialized. I came back to Bacolod, with the hope of being able to work as a volunteer nurse in one of the hospitals here, but I have never received any call from them. Even after being endorsed by the provincial governor for a position in a government hospital, I was still not accepted. For months, it almost became my obsession, until it became so frustrating! I mean, I think I have all the qualifications that I need for this job, but why couldn't I have it? What's even more frustrating is the fact that I did not know if I was only being tested, or if God was already telling me to stop, and move on to another thing. I asked God for a sign, and He gave it to me, so that is why I am putting my Nursing career/my dream on hold.
Other than the fact that I couldn't seem to find a job in the hospital, I really need some cash. I felt like at 24 I really need to start earning for myself. It beats up my self esteem, knowing that I still could not support myself, and still have to depend on my parents for allowance.
Whether we like it or not, there will really come a time when we have to wake up from our dreams, and face reality. It doesn't mean, however, that we should give up on our dreams. I'm not giving up on my Nursing career. I'm only taking a break, and gather all that's necessary to fulfill that dream someday. For now, it will have to wait.
